I had many dreams, and among them was to be your number one fan, your go to friend, your cheerleader and your all round woman. We shared our dreams, we had late nights, just talking and cuddling, we wished nights away with laughter. Sometimes, we could afford nothing to eat, but we still clung to our love. Year in year out, we stayed in patience, hoping for better days to unfold. Hope was our best friend.
I had never visited the lakeside, this was my long time wish but thanks to you my love, for giving me a deserved sixth anniversary gift. Many years have passed and the only real surprise i get is just running out of gas, but you changed the story, you took me to the lakeside. Remember how excited we were?
Never in our friendship have we ever taken so many photos together, but in just one night, we could decorate the universe with our anniversary photos. The candle lit dinner was one of a kind, remember the traditional dancers? Remember how you got on one knee while the female dancer was beside you?This was well though out, well executed, you outdid yourself my love.
But why did you have to suffer planning all this then give me another surprise of impregnating my best friend? I want to feel betrayed but you know what, i am still the strong woman you met. I would really have wished to say i would never love again, but look here boo boo, i found him, and he found me, we found each other.
I was writing this to remind you that, that baby was not an accident, so love her as much as you loved me, but never betray her as a dad.I wanted to let you know that i forgave you, i moved on to greater heights, where candle lit dinners never have to wait for six years, where road trips to the lakeside are not arranged after six years, where dinner dates are a norm, photo shoots are our daily life, where betrayal is never in action, i wish you well. I wish you happiness as you raise your “accidental” daughter. I hope you will never have to go on guilt trips, because as we know cheating is a choice.
As you plan an anniversary for her in the next five years, probably you could come for suggestions, because so far we have toured the country enough, and in six years we shall probably have lost count of times we have been to the lakeside, and lake sides and just name it.
I realized the six years were not wasted, i did not get what i wanted, but i learnt the lessons that i never wanted.See maybe she is innocent, you told her i am nagging, or maybe i am still a virgin and i never gave gave in to your advances because i wanted a white wedding. She does not know that you called me pet names for six years, but i never bore you a child, i met your mother though, but her dream of having me a her daughter in law drowned in just one of your sexual adventures, see i loved you, and i am not sure i still don’t but as they say such is life.
It is never a dull moment thinking of our past, because we created memories.I cling to them when i want to curse you but see i forgave because i learnt that those who forgive are the strongest. I am never a dull woman though, he came, he lit up my life! I do not mean to make you jealous, but the pain turned to laughter and soon it will turn to happily ever after.
I know baby is all grown and you are probably busy searching for kindergartens, i will get my white wedding as i always wished. I will only have to remind you of one more thing, that it was good while it lasted. I might tell the world our secrets but will never let any day be a dark day. I was just passing by to say hi!